Category Archives: Musings

Sitting pretty

When I first built my tiny house, I had this idea that people would use my bed like a couch. I had a drop-loft installed to make an upstairs study, under which we placed a sleeping cubby. Large rolling drawers held my off-season clothing and any other storage items. With a small side table and a little chair, I felt the area could double as a parlor.

Not so. I learned that only children and gay couples felt comfortable sitting on my bed, even neatly made with many pillows along the back wall. While I know a lot of gay couples and a fair number of children, I wanted everyone to feel at ease. I also discovered that I craved a private space. So I sacrificed my writing loft and had a carpenter tear out the bed.

We undertook that project four years ago. Since then, I have struggled to find a good configuration for my new sitting room. One has to duck to clear the loft; but once inside and seated, people seemed to accept the space, except the accommodations. I tried a trio of love seats and a few different chairs, each slightly different and purchased secondhand. Their bulk and depth forced knees to touch mid-room no matter how I turned them. I kept experimenting, having chosen not to utilize the built-in benches common to most tiny houses. I wanted “real” furniture.

Along the way, I acquired new items to compliment what I already owned. With each experimental configuration, the table that came from home, the wooden child’s dresser made by my ex-husband’s first wife’s grandfather, and my angel shelves, all found various places. I rotated, shifted, dusted, decorated. I would stand on the perimeter, turning my head this way and that. I sat in each chair, and on the stools. At 5-2, I can get into the space without much trouble, but could a taller person? Would they feel claustrophobic?

Would I even get enough visitors, after seven years as a California resident, to make the effort meaningful?

Home means comfort to me, safety, peace, and quiet. If people do stop by, for a cup of tea or a glass of wine, I want these sensations to envelope them. Let us sit together, even if in silence. Let the ills of the world not bother us. Do not open the door to sorrow.

The sitting room began to coalesce when my friend Tim Anderson swapped a gold chair for an antique platform rocker that I quite liked but which took too much space. Then my second husband passed away, and left me the Amish table that he swore I married him to acquire. I brought a rocker from my porch to save it from the winter’s rain. A certain symbiosis shimmered in the little cave.

My friend Michelle hung the ex’s ex’s grandfather’s cabinet on the wall. I got a new laundry hamper that almost resembles a backrest. I found a lovely pillow in my guest sleeping loft and unfolded the spare wooden chair. Eventually, I would acquire a blue velvet cushion for the rocker; but even so, it seemed inviting.

As time goes by, I find myself more drawn to these serene vignettes. I leave the drama of a chaotic life behind me. I sit in Tim’s chair and spread my little brother’s afghan over my lap. Our Grandma Corley made one for each of us; I keep mine in the cedar chest. My feet rest on the footstool that once belonged to my great-grandmother whose name I bear. In this calm pose, I let myself drift to sleep.

Mugwumpishly tendered,

Corinne Corley

The Missouri Mugwump®

If you want to see one of my goofy videos, this one about how I assembled the sitting room, click here.

Swans a-swimming

The year has turned and marched two months ahead before I remembered to celebrate the seventh anniversary of my move to California. Now the snow geese settle by the hundreds on the fallow ground of Andrus Island with their less splendid cousins, the Canadian honkers, in smaller but just as noisy clusters. Egrets raise their long legs to scale the torn ground behind a mechanized tiller making its way across the field.

For the last four days, I have been camped in a cabin on the grounds of Park Delta Bay. A wasp infestation and a failed hot water heater drove me from Angel’s Haven. I have been given leave to stay in this park model for the week. With a small bundle of clothing and a week’s worth of groceries, I settled into the very cabin in which my son spent most of last September. His spirit surrounds me.

Recently I found myself in an absurd dialogue with a stranger on social media. They complained about some annoyance associated with what they called ‘woke ideology’. They argued that they did not expect to be paying taxes so other people could get out of supporting themselves. I stared at their words, wondering how the world got so small and mean. We used to care for each other. We used to drop coins in charity boxes on the counter at our local drug stores and write checks for foundations that research children’s diseases. I’ve lived in communities that routinely came out to fill bags with sand in case of flood. where families baked pies to auction for families whose houses had burned.

I saw an ad once with a little girl in a pink tutu raising her arms with one leg extended. The caption admonished, Nobody says, ‘I want to be a drug addict when I grow up.’ My mother taught us to do what we could to help others. As a sophomore in high school, I went down to southern Missouri with a youth group and got arrested for taking my black hosts into a segregated diner. We picketed the parish convent for punishing my brothers who had long hair. Our Ford Maverick sported a home-made bumper sticker protesting the Vietnam war. Years later, my son served Thanksgiving dinner at shelters and helped our friend Katrina package and deliver Meals on Wheels.

That’s what I learned and how I lived. So the generosity of park management in giving me safe harbor for this difficult week did not surprise me. Still, I find myself driving the levee roads, watching the swans in Brothers’ Island Slough, suddenly overcome with a strange mixture of regret and gratitude. I ask myself how I got to be this old with seemingly little to show for my decades of effort. Yet one thing I do possess: A veritable posse of people who care for me.

My evenings do not hold social obligations though, and I sit on my porch alone, watching people stroll by in pairs or led by their beloved canine friends. I watch the sunset by myself, though its beauty seems undiminished by my solitary situation. My life’s to-do list gathers dust on a shelf somewhere. Countries that I longed to see still elude my gaze. Poems linger unwritten in my mind’s recess. Yet, like Jenny’s wistful admirer, I know that life has thrown me a penny or two. So, as my Nana beseeched me to always remember, I keep putting my best foot forward, raising my eyes to the horizon, willing the flock of geese to pass overhead as I linger in the evening’s air.

Mugwumpishly tendered,

Corinne Corley

The Missouri Mugwump®

Jenny Kissed Me, by Leigh Hunt